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I’m will be grateful for today.
I will be grateful for today.
I will cherish what happened today.
I will not take today for granted.
I will count my blessings.
I will move forward & learn from today.
I will make an effort for tomorrow to be better.
I will not dwell on today, but look forward to tomorrow.
Life moves pretty. If you don’t stop and look around every once in a while, you could miss it.
Hurting… but not broken.
I feel different from the inside out.
This is my bible.
The cool cover I made years ago is slowing peeling away and torn around the edges.
On the inside covers, I have hand-written verses that stood out to me.
There are multiple things highlighted throughout the pages, and things are circled so I could remember that I read them.
But I never open this book anymore.
I rely on technology to give me good quotes about how to live, or verses that are re-worded to fit this society… and I’ll post them on Facebook status, but on my heart? Nope. In one ear and out the other.
They say “A bible that’s falling apart, usually belongs to someone who isn’t.”
I wish I could say that. I wish that I had consistently had a devotion “quiet time” with God every morning. I wish I followed along with the scripture being read in church, small group, worship & highlighted and meditated on it. I wish my bible was falling apart.
I’m sitting here this morning feeling so low.
I know it’s an attack because last night I had a great revival in my own heart with a person who was my worst enemy.
And I’m pulling my bible out. Because I don’t want to be falling apart.
I want to rely on God more. I want to know that I can’t do it all on my own. I want to believe again that His words are powerful, and can change me daily. That they can renew and revive me daily. I need to rely on that.
I’m feeling sick this morning, but the instant I pulled out my bible and say the first verse written on the inside cover..
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has even been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. — Herbrews 4:15
..I started crying. The first words I prayed were, “God, I need to do this more often. I miss you.”
I love when I come full circle to realize that my relationship with God really IS a RELATIONSHIP in the full meaning of the word. (synonyms defined by dictionary.com are: dependence, alliance, kingship) I love that I can talk to God like a FRIEND, and not just a “high priest” who is sitting on a throne saying “Oh, I’m sorry, that must suck. Ah well… worship me now.”
No. I worship someone who gets me. Gets where I’m at. Understands. Is all-knowing, caring, loving, gracious and meets me at my low points and rises me.
Another thing I saw in my bible was some quotes based on 1 Corinthians 13:4-7.
Love keeps on trusting God even when the right choices you make don’t turn out the way you want. Love keeps on expecting the best. Love doesn’t give up just because something goes wrong or because your feeling are hurt. God is in charge, so those who love just keep right on loving.
I’m going to keep on loving. I’m going to keep on trusting. I’m going to keep on remembering that God is in charge. I’m not going to give up. I am going to vulnerable, honest, & LOVING.
There is deceit in the hearts of those who plot evil, but joy for those who promote peace. — Proverbs 12:20
I feel better. Good. Not 100% but I’m getting there.
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